misunderstanding

i didnt want to imagine how this day would come, but it came today. sigh. this very troublesome problem.

i thought today would be a very joyable and happy gathering. however, it twisted just before the end of the day. things just went haywire.

i know that both of us have our own fault. and i admit to it. i shouldnt have said what i said to her. however, it was vice versa. i dont know if she realised it, but i know i did.

"i dont friend you."

"it doesnt really matter to me"

these two sentences and it was the end of it. heh, come to think of it, it was childish. however, i think she took it too seriously. it's going to be hard for her to acknowledge my explanation, and hard for me to see her point. all i can say is, it was just a mere joke to me. whether it was to her or not, i may never know. however, i assumed as it was. and i was just playing along. that was it.

to tell the truth, it did matter to me, for a moment. but if it wasnt a joke, but for real, what that matter to me will not be anymore. if it's so easy to say those four words, i see no reason why i should even matter. but of course, everything today was just a misunderstanding. i know that.