LONELY

ok, i think i'm the only stupid one who always update my blog every single day. maybe it's because i'm so free that i dont know what else i can do but to blog everytime i use the computer. sighs. finding a job now is kind of useless, because i only left one month before my o level results come out. so, i'm trying to make use of the time i have left to do what i want to do. now my first plan is to sign up for my second instrument course. no matter what, i'll go register for it as soon as possible. i dont care how people think anymore. also, i must go out very often when i see can, if not, once i start school, it's back to those hectic days where i only get a few hours to go out before coming back to do my super boring homework.

i need to go out! go anywhere also can. i just need to breathe the fresh air outside. i cant just stay at home the whole day, doing nothing but watching tv or playing the playstation, and waking up only after 12pm. i woke up at 1 plus today. what will it be tomorrow if i dont go out? 2pm?! sighs.

sometimes i dont know what are they thinking. i feel left out again. why do i always get this feeling? i hate this. i think i should learn to be independent. i cant always think that they will be there for me at all times. sometimes, when they go a bit mad, i will have to stand on my own feet.

this is just another short entry. i think my entries are getting shorter and shorter each day. why?! because i've been staying at home. the only people that i can actually talk to at times is my sisters. sometimes none of them will be at home. worst is, now that it's a new year, that means they will be in school. except for my second sister, who get half a year free because she's going to university after this. BUT! she's been working part-time, so i dont see her often too. so what am i suppose to do? i'm the only one left alone at home. every morning when i wake up, i feel lonely. what the crap is this man?!

(pardon me)
Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!