useless

argh...i feel so useless!
why!!?
ok, anyway, today its quite a slack day
ppl went for the heats, left only a few ppl in sch(in class)
then i m supposed to go also
but i din even noe im supposed to go?
& i din bring the chew house shirt
then i heard that if neva bring, the whole team will be disqualified
& now becos of me, they may be disqualified
this make me so guilty
luckily gui he is willing to take over me
thank god mans
but i din think she got bring her shirt
i jus passed her my number tag
its no. 301
not a bad number mans
hehe...
haiz...yesterday was such a depressing day
i feel like im so left out from them
its getting further & further
dunno what will happen in the future mans
just hope everything will remain the same as before
when we were all together
laughing, joking around together
now its all split up
haiz...walking pass each other without saying a word
not that i dun wan, but its like when i smile or wave, they dun see it
so i stop doing it
haha...anyway, its just not right anymore
-its still hanging there-
haiz...the exams are getting nearer & nearer
everyday i say to myself that i need to work hard
i will come home & study my textbk
but i din do it!!!
argh...i got no self-control at all
i think i really need someone to push me to do things
things that i will not do by myself
& yet im sitting for the olevels this year
im so not prepared at all
its like 4 years just pass like that
very soon i will be in jc/poly/ite
argh...hope not the last two
cos i wish i can get into a jc
it will be better if its a good one
heh...but i got to work hard mans
looking at my standard now its like crap
all my subjects are like just made it only
if this goes on, im so dead for the o levels
-this is just so crap-