emotions

today is quite an emotional day
in the afternoon, had a big quarrel with my mom
made her really dissapointed in me
we went to jack's place to eat lunch
then i dunno why, i got irritated
i just felt frustrated all of a sudden
& when they were ordering food, i din feel like eating steak
so i jus ordered a bowl of soup & some potato skins
the potato skin was really nice to eat
ok, then yiling started talking abt letters
how she din noe that her piano exam was yesterday if she din found out the letter
then dunno why, i started picking all the pts she & my mother said
& before i knew it, i started quarrelling with my mother
not going to say in details
but i made my mother cry again
& this time i saw it
the way she cried
the dissapointment in her eyes
the tears in her eyes
then she started telling us how she feel
although some parts i still dun agree of what she said
but i felt sorry
i wanted to tell her to tell us all that she feel everytime she felt like today
haha...dunno what im talking abt lah
but i noe what i mean can already
then after that, went to meet wenxin, hilary & guihe
to do the social studies homework
then bought fries to eat
haiz...we took so long just to do part of the question
then suddenly, we just keep on laughing for almost anything
& they started laughing at me?
haiz...only managed to finished it like 6+?
nvm, at least we are done with it
heh...quite lucky that i dont have to go to sch the whole of next week
but of course i will miss out on alot of things
other ppl may think because i just feel like slacking
but actually i also want to participate
but i noe im lousy at it
& it will be amazing if i really participate
then they will just give me that look
haiz...i cant take it any longer
the more they give me that look
the more i think of -------
anyway, having a headache now
& i havent talk to my mother since i came home yet
going for dinner now